Birth Pictures

I'm feeling really sad right now. I was reading through some of my ICAN group mail when I came across some one's birth pictures during her c-section. I was under general anesthesia for my "emergency" c-section with my oldest child. I expected my husband to bring the camera in to the OR with my 2nd child. It was not my biggest concern at the time. I was about to have yet another major abdominal surgery that I didn't want and I was going to be awake for it all. YIPPEE He didn't bring the camera in. I actually don't know if they even allow it in there. I am so sad that I don't have one single birth picture. I'm on the verge of tears. Its just that upsetting. Lately I have become more and more concerned about my own fertility. I know now is not perfect time to have a child but I am still so eager to get pregnant. It would totally mess up my plans for school, but my desire for another child out weighs my education.