Panic

I read on a friend's myspace about her impending induction on Monday. She is not a close friend but someone I worked with a few years back. She is a young first time mom. As soon as I read her status, I felt panic all over. I "HAD" to do something meanwhile thinking this is not your birth. BUT BUT BUT I can't stand back and watch a train wreck possibly happen right? So I did what I would want someone else to do for me and offer the unsolicited advice... I'm still shaking over the idea she might end up a c/s and not know the consequences of it. I will be upset if she doesn't contact me and ends up with a c/s. But what if she succeeds through all the interventions ??? Will I be upset about that too?? Jealously will rear its ugly head I'm sure but I'm sure I will be relieved too.

On another subject I bought 2 books Thursday. "the doulas guide to birth" and Ina May's "guide to child birth"....I'm also awaiting my copy of Jennifer Block's "Pushed"....As soon as I finish those I want "silent knife" and "Born in the USA".....Ohhh and a couple movies... I don't remember their names but I'll update when I get those.